Is there such a thing as second chances with love? Is there truly someone who will bring butterflies and connect with me on a level so intense I almost forget they are not blood relations.
I say forget that emotion can ever exist. Maybe its because I have already found it in Another who has Another. Another who I can't seem to let go off. Wish it was as easy as they say. I think for the first time in the longest time I want to say I do and mean it.
So how do I move on from someone who helped me find me. Someone who I had my FIRST moments with. Someone who has seen the worst and best there is to me. Someone who helped me become that man Another is in love with.
I know I can be SAFE with Another who will have my babies, raise my family, be my rock, etc. . . yet ME wants to fall in love again with the same No1. The one who doesn't have to make sense, the one who has a devastating past/present. The one who comes with all the drama. The one all my friends seem to walk on egg shells around. . .
Its not all in my head! I know you feel it too because for a moment in Her presence there is a certain serenity and calm that makes me WAIT for THAT something. Call it love, call it seduction, call it obsession, call it whatever. . . All I know is it represents something that is worth waiting for sometimes.
So if its your first time then HELL hold on to IT for the moment you find yourself making sense of a past relationship you will start to find these words hitting home so hard you ask: do I still want another that makes me feel so great even if its for a moment or do I simply want The Other?
All that my mind can play back sometimes is the intensity and depth of our love making, the sad smiles of goodbye, the silly jokes, her love for technology. . . I know all of this as confusing as it seems has to mean something?! Well if its all in my head then I just want a moment to capture that emotion again. . .and again. . . and again.
Telly Morris
Sunday, January 09, 2011 at 00:52HRS
